.:.Callitoes Collectanea.:.

Taking into account that I haven’t studied AT ALL for those $%&# exams I talk about below, I’m doing pretty well… No, I should say “rather” well: I might even get a job for the rest of my life! I didn’t want that this soon! Damn my #$%& intelligence, general culture and/or luck that I have :tongue:.

This morning, I had to miss an important performance here in Tenorio with Os Trazantes (gosh! I should update that site one of these days :whistle:) due to the exams. This evening we are having more celebrations with bands, a ball, and all that, but I am sooo tired now… I don’t know if I will go: I’ve even had the chance to go to the river -one of the things I love most in my life- this afternoon and I refused to go… I might go to the ball anyway… Arghh! I don’t know…

Whatever.

Incidentally, I’m hosting at Collectanea.Org; if you need it, don’t be afraid to apply :geeked:.

Did I mentioned that Pontevedra Football Club went up of category last Sunday? I was in the stadium with J. and I really enjoyed the atmosphere. Besides, Pontevedra C. F. played much better than our shameful national team at the Eurocup :mad:. I got myself an (unused :P) roll of toilet paper as a souvenir (no comments, please :geeked:). Everybody in town was thrilled, even those who don’t like football. Pretty exciting, indeed :dance:.

Gotta go… So, hasta la próxima =).

Yesterday, I went to the presentation of the “oposiciones” for the Public Secondary Education System here in the Autonomous Community of Galicia (according to the Cambridge Dictionary, the translation for “oposiciones” is “to sit an examination for a public-sector job”).

It was my mother who signed on behalf of me when I was in Norway. I haven’t studied AT ALL for that thing, I’m just going to see “how it is” and I must say that I find the whole process really fun :dance:. Well, it’s not that fun if you really want to pass the exams to become a teacher and have a decent job for the rest of your working life: there are people who have been studying for those exams for years! But it’s not my case, so I’m not nervous at all :geeked:. Besides, I met several mates of the faculty so I had a really nice time there, specially with M. & R. laughing and playing the fool during the presentation act (we are very discrete clowns, so everybody kept their dignity ;)).

I went to the town where the opositons are being held (Betanzos) with my father, and he left the lights of the car switched on for three hours and… Well, fortunately, three young local guys helped us to make it run ¡Graciñas betanceiros!

On Monday it’s the first examination! I’m looking forward to it

Incidentally: the UE / EU fanlisting has already versions in SIX languages Thanks all of you who have collaborated (and those of you who would like to translate it in any of the languages that have not its own version in the fanlisting yet).

And yep: I’m still worried about all that stuff that made my life quite a difficult thing a couple of weeks ago -and it’s raining these days :dead:-, but now I don’t let them affect me too much ;).

Have a nice weekend!

If we shadows have offended,
Think but this, and all is mended:
That you have but slumber’d here
While these visions did appear.
And this weak and idle theme,
No more yielding but a dream.

So, good night unto you all.
Give me your hands, if we be friends,
And Robin shall restore amends.

Puck in A Midsummer Night’s Dream, by William Shakespeare.

Did you know that I played the role of Puck in 2001 with The English Theatre Group of my University (yeah, the WHOLE version :tongue:). I keep good memories of that performance -in spite of everything :P-, and I am glad to see that my mates in that play remember that day as well. Now, we all send lost calls to each others’ mobile phones every Midsummer Night…

I wish you a nice Midsummer Night’s Dream too :violin:.

Muchísimas gracias a Francesca, Thilo, Patán, Ajda, Beth and everyone who sent messages of support to cheer me up. Believe me, it’s a real pain for me watching myself in such a state, and I wouldn’t say anything about it in here if I wasn’t feeling really bad. But this is like magic: I just see you around and it’s enough for me to watch everything with my best mood, which I seem to have a bit hidden this season :dead:.

I’m still worried about the same things as all these days, but several little nice things have happened in both my earthly life and my net life, so it’s great for me. And I’ve made some tiny retouches in several of my sites:

I’ve completed several “extra” sections of some fanlistings I run (about time too :P. And I should be finishing the rest as well). Gosh! And I have to add the UE FL to Diletante.Net!

I’ve added to this blog Dodo’s threaded comments hack, after viewing that looked nice at Iva’s place :D. I also added another hack that allows you to subscribe to the topic if you are bored enough to do so :geeked:. And I managed to *apparently* not spoil anything, so ¡viva! for me ;).

What else…

I’m building a new layout for .:.CC.:., but I like this Erotica thing a lot, so I guess I won’t upload the new one until August… The colours are so cheerful that I am loving playing with it. And this time *I swear* that when I upload it, there won’t be any broken links and everything will work :P.

Well, I guess it’s enough for today’s Net life if we consider that I’ve had a “busy-busy” day today: I’ve been cutting the lawn in the morning, I had a very tense meeting with some of my partners of the Galician dances group after the rehearsal in the afternoon-afortunately, we sorted things out without too much trouble :smh:. Then I had the presentation of a book written by the president of the Association I made the website for (it’s in Galician). And then my father and I went to buy some cottage cheese (”requesón”/”requeixo”, I like the word in Spanish and Galician :geeked:) to a not so far away village but that is a true part of the “deep Galicia”. It’s been great: the woman who makes the requesón and her son were really interesting, and I could watch from one of the highest points in our area the sun slowly setting into the ría, there, in the horizon. Beautiful 8-).

Talking about interesting and beautiful things, go everyone to watch The Prisoner of Azkaban several times if you can :mrgreen:: it’s not only that I liked it, it IS really a very good film. Honest.

Well, my mother has just come to suggest me that I should go to bed :tongue:, but the truth is that I am rather tired, so I will follow her advise :).
Just one more thing: never hesitate in talking to me about your issues -as some of you have decided to do- just because I seem to be low. Of course that I would like to not have to hear that you are feeling sad and so on, but my own issues don’t keep me from being sensitive and supportive towards others… Well, I just wanted to let you know that o:).
Ciao, ciao…

I’ve been feeling really bad these days :(. I will do what some of you suggested to me: just say it… So there, I’ve spent a horrible week ALONE in our flat in Santiago. I like being on my own, but this time I was ALONE =(.

Remember the “we are still friends” thing of two posts ago? Well, when I was writing that I knew it wouldn’t be so easy, but I am so fed up with being always right when I think the worst of any thing… Besides, there have been other issues that affected me quite a lot, I might tell you about them later. I didn’t even could go to the library this week as I had planned: each time that I started to walk towards there I had to come back home because I felt like crying, but in the end I couldn’t cry either :neutral:, it’s so annoying… Then I cried in the middle of the process of cooking, or trying to finish any chapter of my thesis :cry:. And I couldn’t do anything but sitting there in front of the TV and bothering Q. in Norway telling him some of my stupid feelings by sms, which is pretty difficult thing to do by the way :smh:.

At least managed to give the private lessons as usual: B. the 15 year-old boy did it pretty good, in spite of his sort of depression in the middle of the year. And S. is a bit low these days, but she told me that I cheer her up each time she comes to study with me. How ironic :uh:.

Well, I’m much better now because I am browsing the Net (someone might find the fact that that is one of the few things that can make me glad now a bit sad, but it is true, and it’s something at least) and… Because it’s The Prisoner of Azkaban première in Spain today!!! About time too! I won’t spend a second more than necessary here in Santiago, I will go to Pontevedra as soon as I can this afternoon and I’ll watch it in Pontevedra, with my sister, who got tickets for everyone (it’s always me the one who does that, but I was so this week). This week has been dreadful for me, so even though the film is bad (I’ve enjoyed the other two, though I didn’t find them good =)), I’m sure I will enjoy it a lot, more than anyone. I love the actors, the director, the setting, the story… I will only miss not seeing it with the friends I love most, but there’s my sister there, which is much more than nothing ;).

Mmmm, curious, now that I come to think of it I realise that the people who were annoying me most lately are not Harry Potter series readers… And not only that, THEY ARE HARRY POTTER DESPISERS ALTHOUGH THEY HAVEN’T EVEN BOTHERED IN READING ONE SINGLE CHAPTER!
I should have figured it out earlier.
And I’d better stop here. I’m getting over this week anger, sadness and/or whatever those feelings were and I don’t want to recall them again.

I wish you the very best, whether you enjoy Harry Potter series or not (but please, before judging them, read at least a couple of those books ;)).
Ciao, ciao.

Eurocup 1 - Europarliament 0

lol. No, not really, but almost ;).
I am a “Europtimistic”, and I don’t think that the high level of abstention is caused by a high level of discontent about the EU (I guess that the main cause of discontent is that we are all screwed up by the huge increase of prices since the Euro € turned up), but by a high level of BOREDOM :tongue:.

Yep: most part of voters don’t have a clue about the functions of the Euro Parliament, and those of us who had a little idea about it find it pretty stupid the fact of voting for such a Parliament.

I reckon that most voters like to have the idea of someone or something more or less defined to vote for or to vote against, but the truth is that the Euro Parliament main funcion is approving or disaproving what the Council of Ministers has decided, and most voters (ahem, I’m afraid all of us) think “who cares?” when it is a Sunday in June and you are in the beach and/or enjoying the Eurocup :P.

I believe in the European Union (wow!), but it would be nice if elections where more interesting for voters and candidates cared for explaining people what the %&%$ we are voting for instead of just blaming each other about the bl**dy war :dead:.

If you wanted to know, I went to vote because I always go to vote, the place where I have to vote is near my house and because I am in platonic love with one of the Spanish candidates… Well, forget the last phrase :geeked:, but I’m still thinking that if they want us to participate, they should COUNT ON US too.

Have a nice week =).

Thanks Iva, Frauke, Patán & Francesca for your comments (hey, some of my favourite girls all together ;)).

[EDIT]the EU fanlisting is running :dance:. Any translators round there?
Oh, and please read the comment Thilo has wrote on this post you are reading now. Thanks!
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For some reason, the blog system stopped sending me notifications when you comment on my paranoia, so when I was thinking “great, my last posts are scaring them”, I found all your comments at the same time and I got so glad =)… So, here’s another extended post, Frauke ;). Sorry that I didn’t find them before, Frauke, I would have sent you some encouragement or something, which is not too useful, but well, sometimes is nice receiving it :geeked:. I hope everything has gone well in Leipzig! And about my thesis… Well, it was due by the 2nd of June, but I can present it in September too. I talk to my tutor (and uncle =)) about that, and after listening to my reasons, he agreeded with me doing it by September. It’s almost done actually, but I want to make something really good -that’s my intention, at least :P. Incidentally, I didn’t know there were so many problems to find Maltese translators: I’ve been to Malta a couple of years ago and everybody knows both English and Maltese there. I managed to learn some phrases in Maltese (the most similar ones to Italian ;)), and as the accent is pretty “Romanic” I guess I sounded like native people, because each time I said “buongiorno”, men started to flirt with me in Maltese (they flirt with everybody!!).

Iva: by reading some of what you say in your site I knew that you were one of those “freaks” I talked about :tongue:. Mind that when I’m saying “freak”, I’m being ironic I’ve always been a member of that club too! I might never win on the true-love area, but *you* deserve the best in life, girl :luv:. What do you need help with? Don’t hesitate in asking 8-).

By the way, I asked for a kiss to a boy today (”again”, but to a different boy this time :uh:). No, I am not in love, and I told him. I told him that I might sound cruel, but I wanted to be coherent with myself and respectful to him: I just wanted the kiss for the sake of it, because I knew he hadn’t kissed anyone before and as I was a bit bored, I thought it would be interesting for us both having a bit of practise. Of course, I told him that I was not really “interested” in the erotic sense in him, and that he could say I DON’T WANT YOU TO KISS ME and I would not kill him or something (why is it that guys get so scared when I talk to them in a “I’m serious” tone?). My intentions were quite mean, I know, but I recognised that in front of him, so I could have perfectly understood him if he got angry with me… He didn’t seemed too interested in declining my offer, though, so… It’s amazing how boys tend to put their tongue in the middle of an interaction… I don’t remember noticing “that” so much with girls… I tried to be romantic with this guy anyway: I gave him a hug and caress his hair while I was kissing him, but I didn’t received half the same in exchange… Well, I supose I didn’t deserved it either Whatever. It’s done. And we are still friends :geeked:. Anyway, we should repeat it, HE needs a lot of practise ;).

Oh, Francesca: I’ve read your anecdote about Croatia… I somewhat can understand why so many people is against the EU, but I find their reasons a bit selfish. It is true that a lot of times you have to stop earning money, and even losing a lot to abide to the EU rules, but the truth is that you also receive a lot in exchange. I’ve seen how things improved in several European countries since 1986… Incidentally: thanks a lot Germany and France (the money that helped Spain in 1986 came from them). I know that things improved even for the so-called “rich” countries, and look: Spain has been between *those* since quite a time ago. By what you wrote, I guess you are not against being a part of the EU, am I right Francesca?

Y Patán, me encanta ser tu psicoanalista Bueno, no me gusta que te sientas desgraciada, pero a todo el mundo le gustaría encontrar a alguien (¡o algo!) con quien descargarse, y si yo puedo cumplir de algún modo esa función para ti, para mí es un honoer. De hecho varias personas me usan para eso, pero no te agobies por si voy a juzgarte mal o algo así: puedo no llegar a entenderte del todo (aunque opino que nada humano me es ajeno), pero no voy a molestarme, es más, ¡me siento halagada! Lo único que pido a cambio es que la gente se crea que yo también tengo mis ralladuras y que intenten no juzgarme el día que averigüen cuál es mi gran ralladura… Y, ejem! Henry James… Menudo peligro :geeked:. Vente a Galicia si puedes, tu vida amorosa no mejorará mucho, pero podemos ir a Portugal, a bañarnos al río y a lo mejor me emborracho por primera vez como es debido en tu honor :wall:.

Well, gotta go, the cibercafé is closing.
ENJOY THE EUROCUP!!!

Mmm. I’m afraid this will be one of those posts that make me look like a maniac or something :geeked:.

First of all, thanks to all of you who wished a good recovery to me

Quite a lot of things have happened recently (well, not really, but I felt like saying something of the sort :P). Last Sunday I was invited by R., the friend of mine who is going to Kansas, to have lunch at the country house of her family. I could get to know her much better, specially her family :???:, and realising how lucky I am. I like her even more, but it’s a pain realising how much I despise certain kind of people too… Then, the day after, I spent all night long feeling miserable for the weirdest reasons: I spent the night alone at Santiago, which is not so uncommon, but the thing is that I got worse of my cold or whatever the $%&%$ that was and as I could not breathe, I could not sleep, so I continued writing a sort of novel I compose when I am bored, just as an exercise :P. The part I did that night was a suicide letter (your comments to a past entry inspired me ;)), and it’s not only that I got too much into the character that was writing it, but into the character that was supposed to read it… Gosh, I know I am not such a good writer :tongue:, but I got really thrilled, so I started crying like a mad and that made my breathing even worse, but I couldn’t stop crying… Yeah, a real drama… Like a gore film, more precisely. Now I laugh at myself imagining the scene, but I felt very grotesque, even ashamed. Pathetic. Then I had the *great* idea of thinking over how easy people fuck litterally each others life just for the sake of sex, and how stupid we -freaks like a couple of my friends and I, who do know what the difference between love and sex is, who do know how to be pleased by sex without fucking other’s lives, and who long not to know someone special to fuck that life, but to make love with- are…

I was still crying -or whatever you can call at that thing I was doing- at 3 a.m. I tried to read but even Physics Essays thrilled me too!!! If I had Internet at the flat in Santiago I could have got rid of that idiotic moment by reading someone else’s paranoia; I could also have wrote a message to my friend R., but she has no mobile phone. So in the end I decided to wrote a sms to Q. in Norway, which is always the one who ends up by reading the stuff I write when I am in my most pathetic states :violin:. I’m always frightened of scaring him or something, but I guess that even though he gets scared, he is getting use to it In the end I managed to get some sleep, and I was awaken by a beautiful sms by Q. I was totally recoverd of my misery, my cold and everything by then, I knew it when I didn’t feel like crying when he asked me if The Prisoner of Azkaban had been already released in Spain and I realised that he is one of the few people I know that would like to come with me to watch it (sigh!) and he is way sooo far. Thanks heavens my parents gave me a sister

And Ronald Regan died… (I’m thinking in quite a lot of things at the same time now). Well, it was about time; I mean, he was ill and so on, so it’s not that extrange, but it was a real icon of the eighties and knowing about his death makes me feel melancholic… I remember when he was shot, I was like 6 years old and I was already worried by politics and the World just as I was worried about not doing too bad at school or trying to find out when I was going to see my best friend again. I remember I uses to talk about “world issues” with my maternal grandmother… I must recognise I was quite a lucky girl having several interesting people next to me the first years of my life. But they left pretty soon too :(, domage!

Whatever, Internet stuff: I got excited and I applied for another fanlisting (it’s been ages since the last time I said “I won’t apply for another one, I promise”), but…. (There’s always a “but”, isn’t it? :D) I couldn’t believe there was no fanlisting for this thing, I couldn’t, I just have to build it even though it might have more haters than lovers… What I am talking about is… The European Union I applied for it to be included in both the Politics section and Places at The Fanlistings, but it was only admited in Politics. I’ve got the layout and the English and Spanish versions ready, and some pieces of the French, Galician-Portuguese and German (I’ll ask some of you to help me with certain translations) You know how much I love languages and how much I try to respect everyone’s mother tongues, so it would be great having a version of that fanlisting in each one of the official languages of the European Union. Do you know Maltese? Slovenian? Finnish? I will ask some of the members of the languages fanlisting to help me with all that, it’ll be fun… I love the Internet spirit :geeked:.

Now that I come to think of it, my thesis is going pretty well… It’s amazing how my psychological state can depend on my academic life :geeked:.
Gotta go now. I wish you the best in your academical stuff too.
See you!