.:.Callitoes Collectanea.:.

I promised myself that I would never do it: it’s humiliating and I am supposed to surf the net for fun or for the sake of it or “for sake of art” as we say in Spanish (por amor al arte); but you know, I was getting bored last night, I received an email talking wonders about it, and thought it would be interesting to earn some cents for doing Google searches…

Yes, I was bored indeed and I don’t think I will earn much with this, but hey, if you want to take a look at it and if during the process you help me earn a bit more for mentioning me as a referal, great :).

Just click here and try to have fun ;).

Por cierto, si a alguien le interesa saberlo, no vamos a Praga. Lo dejamos para otro momento de nuestras vidas; no era buen momento para la vida de al menos una de nosotras de todas formas.

It seems that we are living a change of an era at TFL.org: most of the almost-lifeterm senior staffers have just left and I’ve noticed a sudden change in the interest towards fanlistings by some of the so-called groupies.

I understand that being a senior staffer there must be a pain and I do respect that decision, but quitting without a trace of sadness (well, 5% in some cases :P) is a bit… How to say it? Please let me consider it a bit disrespectful.

On the other hand, most of those who began collecting fanlistings like crazy (I might be one of them, I confess ;)) have now realised they can’t cope with them now and are giving them up, sometimes even closing them without at least offer them for addoption.

We’ll have to try to keep the illusion alive. Of course it’s a pain, but it is worth it… I guess. And we all should show some respect for those who are still liking to join them and to show off the thinks we like :).

Muchas velitas al papa muerto, muchas velitas al papa muerto, pero a ese hombre con una brecha en la cabeza ni lo miran. Aunque sea un borrachuzo que maltrate diariamente a su mujer y a sus hijos, merece por lo menos que lo mire alguien más que una extranjera que se siente impotente, y sobre todo merece que alguien le ofrezca ayuda, aunque la rechace.

Llevo dos horas llorando. Entre el estrés habitual de todo trabajador hijo de vecino, el estrés post-traumático de lo del móvil, el síndrome premestrual (me toca las narices tener que reconocer que a mí también me pasan esas cosas, pero llevar dos horas llorando sin razón aparente no me deja otra opción…) y pequeñas anécdotas que me destrozan el alma no doy abasto.

De todos modos, soltar sapos y culebras a algo/alguien en Internet/en casa me consuela bastante. Tanto que ya se me está quitando la necesidad de sacar el pañuelo y se está convirtiendo en ganas de sacar la metralleta x).

Estoy fatal, y no sabéis lo que me fastidia verme quejarme de esta manera. El año pasado, en dos momentos en los que estaba en un estado parecido va y sucede lo del 11M y lo de Osetia del Norte, como para restregarme por las narices que no tengo absolutamente ningún derecho a estar depre. A ver qué pasa ahora :S.

Pero me encuentro fatal. To prawda.

Yesterday was a perfect day. Today isn’t at all, so I can totally appreciate the difference.
Perfect days are crap.

But I got the most out of this crappy day to do some varied -and surprinsingly non deppresive, I think :P- so-called creative stuff.
But I didn’t know I could hate perfect days the day after that much.
That’s it.

El Congreso aprueba la ley sobre el matrimonio homosexual :dance:.

It has just happened and I’m sure you will already know it by when you read this, but I mention it just in case…

Even though it has now to be approved by the “Senado” as well :S, it’s a great step. So yay for the Spanish government :)!!
(They will screw up any other stuff, but this is a good compensation ;)).

For what is worth, as you may already know, it’s not that I consider myself a lesbian (I wish I knew for sure which sexual orientation I have :P), but I am definitely “a great fan”, as they say ;), that’s why I am so glad about this piece of news.

Cheers!

Ok, ok then… So you read my *pathetic* posts too… :P.
(Thanks a lot Iva and Frauke).

Sorry to be so cryptic there, but I just write those posts to get rid of my feelings somehow, but now that I do know that you read them (in fact you proved that last year as well), I’ll try to put more details into them ;).
All the same, I somehow fear that “the details” might read this too, and what I fear is not precisely them not liking what I write about them, but the fact of them being clearly identifiable in my writings, I don’t want to invade their privacy…

Whatever, I’m getting over everything as I usually do: I already have a new mobile phone and maybe tomorrow I will have my old number back, so great.

I will send my papers to the Sweden thing this week too and let’s see what happens. Whether I got there or if I rather get stuck to my previous plan (which I wouldn’t mind at all) I’ll keep you informed, don’t worry about that ;).

Glad to see you round here, by the way. I really appreciate your “presence” ;).
Incidentally, how do you like this new look of my personal site? (Great, great , of course :))
There’s still quite a few to be done, specially in the English version, but arranging everything little by little will keep me entertained :D.
And I definitely have to fix the smilies thing here, I cannot live only on :D, and :mrgreen:… :P.

Thanks again and see you!

I’m sure several of you remember those pathetic posts of mine I used to post last year which consisted on “I hate self-pity but I can’t help expressing how miserable I feel right now”…

Well, this could be one of those too, read if you dare:

My mobile phone was stolen, the pictures I took seconds before I was robbed didn’t show up, a girl I know with whom I had started fantasising about the possibility of her being a lesbian who fancied me introduced me her BOYfriend today; I’ve got a virus in my computer, I received the news that I had been pre-selected to go to the University of Goteborg as an assistant teacher -I had almost completely forgotten I had applied for it- just a few hours after I had made up my mind about next year -so my future is not that clear *again*; everybody wants private lessons with me and I am stupid enough to being unable to say “nie”, so I am overcharged with work -even though I do enjoy it-, and I’ve fallen in love…

Gosh… This is the worst part…

Again, yes; and this time is the worst time ever: it’s deep but I am very aware it will go nowhere… Incidentally, I fancy two other people -guys, for what is worth- too, but anyway I know I’m not going anywhere with any of them either -someone should slap me: I deserve it… All the same, -I repeat- I AM IN LOVE -that’s it, in love, pathetic but true- OF *THAT* ONE. But it’s totally senseless and I am totally, painfully aware of it. Maldita sea mi estampa…

I hate complaining, but I do feel I have the right to complain today.
I need chocolate or doing some flips… Or rather reading the news (in the Internet, but not watching them on tv here: they only talk about the Pope xP), in order to make myself forget thinking about just myself.
Hope you are doing much better
Dobranoc.

I just had to write such a post for all Poles that might read this blog and for my own personal records:

This is a really beautiful gallery by Karolina Breguła that was misunderstood by Polish authorities. Here’s a beautiful example of this exhibition (click on the image to visit its site):

THE most interesting organization (because it’s the only one!!! ) against homophobia in Poland: here

Something in Lódz: here

For girls :D: here

This is interesting too:
National Lesbian Archives - Poland
c/o Olga Stefaniuk
PL-91851 Lodz Pologne
48-42-57 82 62 (phone/fax)

And this, that will be held next week.
(English version here). Although the whole thing will have to be altered because of the death of the Pope…